God Holds Us in The Palm of HIS Hand

  When you go through a loss like we have, like our family has and like so many friends have, your heart breaks all over again when you learn of someone else and their family having to go through it.  Miscarriage, stillbirth and SIDS are something that is unfortunately to familiar to us.  As you all know we have had 3 miscarriages, my brother and his wife had 2, my brother inlaw and his wife had 1 and then precious sweet Lilly was born sleeping, we have a friend whose beautiful baby girl was born sleeping and then another whose baby boy went to sleep and woke up with Jesus.  It's a feeling you never get over, a feeling that stays with you the rest of your life, like something is missing, a piece of your heart is gone.
  Yesterday I got the news that a sweet family was going to have to go  through the heart break of a stillbirth.  I sat here and cried all night long, just knowing what awaits that precious family.  But, ya know what God holds them in the palm of HIS hand.  It's a hard thing to comprehend muchless understand and I believe we will never understand things like this till we get to Heaven.  I can't imagine the pain parents go through with a stillbirth, I now how hard it was to learn 3 times that our babies heartbeat was no longer there, that they had spread their wings and flew to Jesus.  It's so hard not to question God and just fall on your face asking WHY??? and until you have personally experienced this pain you have no idea how hard it is.  I know we were so thankful for a loving family, church family and friends who prayed for us and when no words could be found would  say," we love you and are praying for you".  Sometimes I wondered why God took our babies and let these sorry good for nothing people keep having kids, but God had another plan.  I have heard people say we are to never question God, but when your heart is torn and faith is worn you can't help but wonder WHY US.
  I remember when our friend's baby girl was born sleeping, she posted that the presence of our great God was so strong in that room, you could feel HIM near. You may as how could she say that, I can tell you how, God holds us in the palm of HIS hand.  Yes, there were times she wondered like we did WHY GOD, WHY US but HE was there saying I am here, right here with you.  When you heart is broken and there are no words, tears are a language God understands, something only HE can understand.
  So for that special family that will have to go through all of this in the next few days, know that our sweet Jesus is right there with you.  There will be so many WHY's, so many days you feel like you can't go on, days that you may feel God has forsaken you, but never forget HE is there, just crawl up in the arms of Jesus and cry awhile, I have done it many times.  Never forget GOD HOLDS US IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND. 

Sorry so long!!!

Oh goodness I just got on here and noticed my last post was almost a yr ago and so much has changed. So, here goes the yr in review.
We have changed the way we homeschool!! I loved the ABeka DVD's but Leah was gettin tired of them since she had been doing them since K4. Well, I did some research and we are now doing Saxon Math, Easy Grammar, ABeka Science and History and Spelling Challenge. Leah is enjoying school so much more and she has learned ALOT. It's a lot more relaxed and not so regimented which is more of our lifestyle, since we are on the go so much.

Leah turned 10 this year and she is a beautiful girl on the inside and outside. She has such a big heart and loves people and is so giving. Aubrey turned 3 and he is a VERY active lil man. My Daddy calls him a Tasmanian Devil cause he's always going and sometimes in circles. He loves his family and is into everything.

I think the biggest change that has come this year is that we aren't traveling with Kendall anymore. Leah decided she wanted to stay home, she was tired of making friends then having to leave them and she just really wanted to be at home. I was ready to come home too! So after much prayer and talking it over, Kendall and I decided we would stay home. And it's worked out really well since his job this summer has only been 2 hrs from home. After we decided we would stay home, the Lord laid it on my heart to ask our home church about starting Awana. Well, Daddy said he had always heard good things about Awana and he had been praying that God would put it on someone's heart to do this. And for some reason God chose me :) It has been crazy trying to get everything organized to fit into our schedule but I think it's finally coming all together. We start Awana on September 14th and God has blessed me with an awesome Awana staff, people who loved the Lord and want to see kids saved, what more could ya ask for.

Now, for the next change. Kendall will be starting work for a new company next week and we are so excited about it. This new company mostly works in Louisiana, Mississippi and Texas so that means he will usually be pretty close to home. Ya know it's just amazing how things work out when you put it in God's Hands and leave it there. Hopefully it won't be so long till the next update.

Tennessee

Just a few pics from one of the most beautiful places God made!! Great Smoky Mountain Natioanl Park!

The hardest thing!!

Someone asked me last time I was home what was the hardest part of being on the road with Kendall and I said lots of things but I have discovered what is the hardest. Being away from family and friends is hard, but I think the hardest part is church. What I mean by that is finding a new church is always so hard. I have figured out that other than Kendall and the kids, the thing I personally need most is a good church. I need to be part of a group who belives that Jesus is the only way to get to Heaven and that sometimes is hard to find. We've been to churches that say as long as you have good intentions you'll get there or if you'v lived a good life at the end HE will weigh out your good and bad deeds and it the good out way the bad then you'll get to Heaven. Been to churches where the Pastor just spoke about LOVE and love is what we all need to have, never presented the plan of salvation or told people how to get to Heaven.

I need a church where the gospel is preached, where the preacher really preaches, preaches that JESUS and only JESUS is the way to Heaven, how to accept Jesus as your Lord and Saviour. That once you accept HIM, HE will change you and you will never be the same. A church that is glad you are there, a church that has wonderful music, a church that is there to love and help those in need, not a church that just entertains. So many churches these days think entertainment is where it is and I LOVE a good Christian concert, or play but once ya get em there tell em how it is. Life is not all good and easy once you start this walk with the Lord but it's the only walk I want. I need a good preacher who preaches the word and isn't afraid to call sin, sin, one that thinks you should hate the sin and love the sinner. THAT is the thing that's the hardest part of not being in Louisiana or Mississippi, tryin to find a good church like our home church or Northcrest and tryin to find a good preacher like my Daddy or Dr. Dan Lanier.

There are so many things I miss while we are gone but this, to me is the most important thing!

Here's the pics of the warmers!!

I have got to get better at this!!!

I need to do this more often but, it's hard to find the time to do it!!! Life is good, I have started yet another home business and it is awesome I am now a Scentsy consultant. If you're like me I know you are wondering what in the world it is, well I'm gonna post some pics of the warmers and you'll get a better idea of what it is.

School is good, we are almost through for the year, by that I mean the end of May 1st of June!! But, there is a light at the end of the school year tunnel. We also are loving the church we attend over here in Meridian, Leah and I have both made lots of friends over here an will be VERY sad when we have to leave.

Aubrey will turn 2 in 25 days!!! These 2 years have went by soo fast! Leah just turned 9 and she is somethin else.

Hope to get on here more and update but this is all for now. Leah got a Paula Deen cookbook for her birthday so we are fixing a recipe from it for lunch!!! Hope you all have a awesome day!

TOO LONG!!!

We have been sooo busy here lately and I haven't had time to update so I finally am. Aubrey is such a little boy now, into everything and bothers his sister to death. Leah is good, she is growin up way too fast. We are still in Meridan.

I' ve been thinkin about this CHRISTmas and how it's gonna be so different this year. It will be my first CHRISTmas ever without my sweet Mamaw and the closer it gets the more I miss her.

We have been sooo blessed this year and for that we are thankful. Had some hard times but the Lord will never give ya more that you can bear. We are so blessed with such awesome friends and family and love you all