God Holds Us in The Palm of HIS Hand

  When you go through a loss like we have, like our family has and like so many friends have, your heart breaks all over again when you learn of someone else and their family having to go through it.  Miscarriage, stillbirth and SIDS are something that is unfortunately to familiar to us.  As you all know we have had 3 miscarriages, my brother and his wife had 2, my brother inlaw and his wife had 1 and then precious sweet Lilly was born sleeping, we have a friend whose beautiful baby girl was born sleeping and then another whose baby boy went to sleep and woke up with Jesus.  It's a feeling you never get over, a feeling that stays with you the rest of your life, like something is missing, a piece of your heart is gone.
  Yesterday I got the news that a sweet family was going to have to go  through the heart break of a stillbirth.  I sat here and cried all night long, just knowing what awaits that precious family.  But, ya know what God holds them in the palm of HIS hand.  It's a hard thing to comprehend muchless understand and I believe we will never understand things like this till we get to Heaven.  I can't imagine the pain parents go through with a stillbirth, I now how hard it was to learn 3 times that our babies heartbeat was no longer there, that they had spread their wings and flew to Jesus.  It's so hard not to question God and just fall on your face asking WHY??? and until you have personally experienced this pain you have no idea how hard it is.  I know we were so thankful for a loving family, church family and friends who prayed for us and when no words could be found would  say," we love you and are praying for you".  Sometimes I wondered why God took our babies and let these sorry good for nothing people keep having kids, but God had another plan.  I have heard people say we are to never question God, but when your heart is torn and faith is worn you can't help but wonder WHY US.
  I remember when our friend's baby girl was born sleeping, she posted that the presence of our great God was so strong in that room, you could feel HIM near. You may as how could she say that, I can tell you how, God holds us in the palm of HIS hand.  Yes, there were times she wondered like we did WHY GOD, WHY US but HE was there saying I am here, right here with you.  When you heart is broken and there are no words, tears are a language God understands, something only HE can understand.
  So for that special family that will have to go through all of this in the next few days, know that our sweet Jesus is right there with you.  There will be so many WHY's, so many days you feel like you can't go on, days that you may feel God has forsaken you, but never forget HE is there, just crawl up in the arms of Jesus and cry awhile, I have done it many times.  Never forget GOD HOLDS US IN THE PALM OF HIS HAND.